Screw January 1, back to school has always been my New Years. For me, it’s the time for resolutions, closet cleaning, organization, and starting anew. THIS YEAR is the one. The year I am going to be an organized person. It’s a whole new me! I’m gonna start a new exercise regimen, I’m gonna volunteer for shit (well maybe not), I’m gonna make new mom friends, I’m gonna do all kinds of stuff with all my time once those pesky kids go back to their schedules.
And then the weirdest thing happens, it’s called LIFE. And it always happens and it always gets in my mother fucking way. Somebody gets sick. Somebody’s car needs service and they’re not old enough to drive a rental so I have to go with them and swap cars and there goes my morning. A contractor falls through the ceiling (it happened) or accidentally throws away all the tile you just bought for the new flooring (also happened) and you have to fix it ASAP. Work has a crisis or 10 at once. One of the kids or one of my family members derails and I have to get them back on track and somehow I just don’t seem to find the time to organize those closets or label those files or sort through those photo albums or whatever the hell it was I was going to do this year.
Who are these people anyway? These people who manage to take these amazing posed Christmas card photos AND mail them on time AND keep track of everyone’s addresses? Who are these people who bring their lunches to work in those little Container Store bento boxes AND remember to bring the boxes back home AND wash them out and pack them again the very next damn day and every damn day after that one? Who are these people?
I don’t know, man. Most days I am barely keeping my head above water. Some days I feel like I am keeping my nostrils and little puckered mouth above water and I’m really fucking proud of myself for doing that much. So little bento box packed lunches with meal prepping? That’s just not my journey bitch, but I am giving you mad props for it. You go. I’ll be over here in the drive thru lane wasting $11 on a Starbucks salad that tastes like defeat. But it’s okay. Because sometimes I’ll get Cane’s crinkle fries and sauce and that tastes like joy so there’s that….
To be honest I am just happy when I am back on a schedule and I feel like I can get my arms around life again. Everybody is back to having regular bedtimes and meal times and I can plan my day a bit. My resolution this year is to help my daughter navigate college applications and ACT/SAT and to adjust to the idea that soon enough my nest will be truly empty. I’ve also got my hands full helping my hubby with some health issues as he gets older and looks toward retirement, something I’d like to explore more on the blog. And of course, I am still learning about blogging as it is all very new to me and I am not very tech savvy. So thank you all for your patience, I promise I will improve! What are your New Year’s resolutions for this school year?